I want to Believe

Read some books recently. Why am i so hardworking?  Cause there is a need to brush up my language. It is embarrassing to send emails with lots of grammar mistake;write notes that no one understand. I feel inadequate whenever my bosses have to correct them. I want to do better, I want to be more effective, I want to believe I can shine.

Random Thoughts

Looking back, I realise I have come a long way. I should be thankful with all the victories I had and start counting my blessings. Life is short to waiver and be uncertain.

Looking forward to a brand new life…

 

蒲公英的約定

蒲公英的約定

 By Jay Chou

 小學籬芭旁的蒲公英 是記憶裡有味道的風景
午睡操場傳來蟬的聲音 多少年後也還是很好聽

將願望折紙飛機寄成信 因為我們等不到那流星
認真投決定命運的硬幣 卻不知道到底能去哪裡

＃一起長大的約定 那樣清晰 打過勾的我相信
說好要一起旅行 是妳如今 唯一堅持的任性

在走廊上罰站打手心 我們卻注意窗邊的蜻蜓
我去到哪裡妳都跟很緊 很多的夢在等待著進行

Repeat ＃

一起長大的約定 那樣真心 與妳聊不完的曾經
而我已經分不清 妳是友情 還是錯過的愛情

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Meteor Garden

Not too sure what happened to me. I got sentimental and start watching Meteor Garden 1 all over again. Time flies. It has been 7 years since it first aired. I was only 18yrs old then. HAHA… I remembered how crazy I was about Jerry Yan. He was the PRINCE CHARMING. During that time, my friends and I would gathered and discuss about the drama (we bought the VCD). We were so into it that we got upset whenever the main characters don’t seems to stand a chance to be together. Haha those were the days. When we were still young and our imagination were wild. BUT through the years, all of us have grown up unknowingly. We went through school of hard-knocks and became realistic about life. We are being boxed into what is called real and imagination becomes nothing more than illusion. Fantasies do not appeal to us anymore.

 

But whenever I watch this drama, I will be reminded of a friend.

 

(Flash back)

 

When I was 18, I had severed depression. The depression was caused by an abusive relationship. To make matter worst, my relationship with family was bad. We were constantly fighting over monetary issues.

 

During those days, I never home after work. I would stay out until late at night just to avoid any quarrels with my family. As tired as I may be, I will not go home cause I hated the quarrels and hate it that I would have to cry alone and wonder why they treated me the way they did. Then there was this friend. He knew that I was going through a bad patch and decides to help me. He offered his time and friendship.

 

During those days, I would go to the hostel, use his laptop to surf net. He knew that I was crazy for Meteor Garden drama; he would download the drama from somewhere so that I can watch it while he studies. There was once, I had a big fight with my family, career was going down the drain and memories of that abusive relationship haunted me. So to cheer me up, he burned the original sound tracks of Meteor Garden and gave it to. What he did that really cheers me up. =)

 

Through those dark periods, he was there whenever I need a listening ear. Because he has been there and gave me his time, he helped me to walk out of depression.

 

Through his friendship, I learnt how to be a friend. He taught me how to love myself even when others don’t.

 

Even though now we have our own life and are no longer as close; he will always be my special friend. Whenever I think of him, it is enough to put a smile on my face cause I know I have a friend who went through my darkest time with me. He let me know what friendship is all about. I am glad!!! I learnt the value of friendship from him. =)